Do I even have the right to miss you? Do I deserve the support being offered? How can I be out having fun when he’s gone? Why am I so selfish? Why wasn’t I good enough? If you’ve lost someone you love to suicide, I’m sure you’re plenty familiar with these thoughts. They come upContinue reading “Guilt. Another painful twist on grieving a suicide loss.”
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Temporary Emotion
Isn’t it funny how temporary our emotions are? And how, when the feeling passes, it’s hard to remember exactly how that emotion felt in the moment? When I’m pouring words out into my keyboard, the emotion is so real in the present. I’m feeling all of the things I am writing, and it feels soContinue reading “Temporary Emotion”
Missing You Extra
Tonight, I’m missing you extra. Nothing triggered it, at least to my knowledge, but at the moment the pain is exceptional. It’s an overwhelming homesickness that I can’t soothe, because home was in your arms. It had been such a good week, too! I worked long hours and got the bills paid and even hadContinue reading “Missing You Extra”
My Side of the Bed
I still sleep on my side of the bed, even though this whole bed, purchased from Amazon and skillfully put together step-by-step by me, was mine before you and became mine again after you died. I still strictly keep to my side. Sometimes I even pretend that you’re asleep on the couch, and that you’llContinue reading “My Side of the Bed”
I used to really love life.
I used to REALLY love life.I’ve been knocked down, worn out, and sometimes it feels like there’s someone trying to prove that I should just give up on the positivity. I’ve been told many times that I’m the most positive person people know… but I’ve also been repeatedly told that this makes me naive andContinue reading “I used to really love life.”
Merely Sarah 