My heart is safe right now…

Heartbreak, whether from someone leaving, loss of a loved one, or loving something you can’t have, is the worst pain there is. There’s no comfort for it and no pill we can take to alleviate the pain. We never fully recover from it, and we spend our lives trying to avoid it and walking aroundContinue reading “My heart is safe right now…”

Guilt. Another painful twist on grieving a suicide loss.

Do I even have the right to miss you? Do I deserve the support being offered? How can I be out having fun when he’s gone? Why am I so selfish? Why wasn’t I good enough? If you’ve lost someone you love to suicide, I’m sure you’re plenty familiar with these thoughts. They come upContinue reading “Guilt. Another painful twist on grieving a suicide loss.”

The Sun Rises, The Sun Sets

The sun rises… the sun sets. The sun doesn’t care what is happening in our individual lives. It doesn’t mind if we beg it to stop. It rises each morning and slowly warms the surface of the earth while we scramble around below trying to find some meaning from it all. The morning after myContinue reading “The Sun Rises, The Sun Sets”

My Side of the Bed

I still sleep on my side of the bed, even though this whole bed, purchased from Amazon and skillfully put together step-by-step by me, was mine before you and became mine again after you died.  I still strictly keep to my side.  Sometimes I even pretend that you’re asleep on the couch, and that you’llContinue reading “My Side of the Bed”