Living alone is a strange experience. I’ve always been the independent type, so living alone is not a big deal. In fact, most of the time I actually enjoy it. I have my own space and the freedom to do as I please with it. It’s rewarding to look around and know that I’m notContinue reading “When the silence gets too loud, drown it out with music.”
Tag Archives: grieving
My heart is safe right now…
Heartbreak, whether from someone leaving, loss of a loved one, or loving something you can’t have, is the worst pain there is. There’s no comfort for it and no pill we can take to alleviate the pain. We never fully recover from it, and we spend our lives trying to avoid it and walking aroundContinue reading “My heart is safe right now…”
Guilt. Another painful twist on grieving a suicide loss.
Do I even have the right to miss you? Do I deserve the support being offered? How can I be out having fun when he’s gone? Why am I so selfish? Why wasn’t I good enough? If you’ve lost someone you love to suicide, I’m sure you’re plenty familiar with these thoughts. They come upContinue reading “Guilt. Another painful twist on grieving a suicide loss.”
Temporary Emotion
Isn’t it funny how temporary our emotions are? And how, when the feeling passes, it’s hard to remember exactly how that emotion felt in the moment? When I’m pouring words out into my keyboard, the emotion is so real in the present. I’m feeling all of the things I am writing, and it feels soContinue reading “Temporary Emotion”
Missing You Extra
Tonight, I’m missing you extra. Nothing triggered it, at least to my knowledge, but at the moment the pain is exceptional. It’s an overwhelming homesickness that I can’t soothe, because home was in your arms. It had been such a good week, too! I worked long hours and got the bills paid and even hadContinue reading “Missing You Extra”
Where do I begin?
I’ve always been the happy girl. Easy to please, generally positive, and always looking on the bright side. I believe in hard work and honesty. I like to earn the things I have and I am always working towards something bigger and better. I love openly and always see the good in people. I amContinue reading “Where do I begin?”
Lay it on me.
I think sometimes people who know of my losses feel like they have to tiptoe around me. I guess I understand why; maybe they feel that I am more fragile now because of what I’ve been through, and they don’t want to say anything to upset me or make things worse. But the reality isContinue reading “Lay it on me.”
My Side of the Bed
I still sleep on my side of the bed, even though this whole bed, purchased from Amazon and skillfully put together step-by-step by me, was mine before you and became mine again after you died. I still strictly keep to my side. Sometimes I even pretend that you’re asleep on the couch, and that you’llContinue reading “My Side of the Bed”
Merely Sarah 